I think the time is right

basically everything has changed since last yr,too many ppl came into my life and left.. but now its like iv been thinking for a lil while tonyt and thought yh its the right tym to start writing..coz tonyt i cudnt think of any other way to deal... i want u so badly,its lyk i never stopped wanting u..and thinking abt it now i rly do think i never stopped wanting u since the very moment i saw u,thru the year,and today..i keep needing to recharge and start all over again but i cnt keep doin tht....i think im losing the will now..actually not the will... just the capability...i cnt keep doin this anymore..either this or tht..but not in the middle... and you are fukin doin my head in with this fukin situation YOU have created,i didnt fukin ask u to do this and i didnt fukin ask for it and im not fukin liking it i dont want it lyk this for fuks sake plz stop it i dnt like it i do no not want things to b like this i dnt wana b stuck here forever! i do not wana be here anymore. im tired of it. i want things to b complete. i want u properly.not fukin half. i dnt want a fukin half of a life.why shud i? i aint done nothing tht wrong.theres worser ppl out there gettin treated better .so dnt fukin tell me its coz -



thts is where i lost tht post and could not continue it. i had no idea it automatically saves every few mins and therefore i thought i had lost the post tht night..i hav found it now and dnt wish to continue..i am gona publish it tho.. it was the 29th of May 2008 but i have published it today,21st of september 2008