nothings alright..nothing is fine..

listenin to: last resort-paparoach

ur never here when i need u.and u never were.evn when u should have been.
u r my true misery.u r my true happiness. you . u r my true love.
but u dont knw. it might take years for YOU to understand.maybe u'll see it one day.and see that no one can b like me,and me is wot u need.

im bored and there aint no one to tlk to.see thts wot sucks abt this life,if u look around there so many ppl 'there' but in reality,when u RLY look around,they all fade away...diseappear..
i remember sayin sumink along these line in one of my earlier posts,one f the first few i think..couple years back.. just shows u init,tht things dnt rly ever change,and i m pretty much the same as well unfiortunately..i havnt RLY grown..i havnt RLY become stronger.. bcz i still feel the SAME pain.. but does being strong mean not feelin past pain anymore..or does it...?
dnt rly knw to be honest,thts a gud question...dnt think i'll be discovering the answer to tht any tym soon but anyway..
so yh nobody to tlk to..u dnt knw why iv suddenly just started to feel lonely..it happened last nyt lyk i sed b4..very strange..id love to say its the least of my worries but truely,it isnt..

nothings alright
nothing is fine

i just randomly thought of a friend i lost in the past year..to nothing rly..just lost her to the world to b honest..miss u fiz.. funny how i wanted to knw u evn afta u two faced me so sikly..
i dont miss nobody else..

apart frm u,my everything. i wish u were my stength..for now ur just my weakness..
damnnn i actually wana listen to H.I.M..! wow its been lyk over a year since i had an urge lyk tht..not gna do it tho..not wise..
im so bored...i literally have no reason to open my mouth and talk,sumthing i actually need to do right now otherwise i might just lose the plot..but i cnt tlk to myself tht a sign of insanity..

listenin to: elegy- as i lay dying

oh dear..iv dne it again. nightmares.