a piece of my mind
listenin to : let me love you-mario
one of the biggest lessons iv learnt in life..is tht regret is a bitch.. and u wudnt never knw until u actually regret..
knowing that i had you..and,somehow surely, i let u slip away..i had you,yet i let it slip..thru my fingers..i wake up everyday,thinking its ok,and i then it hits me..within seconds..the reality..of what i have lost..i go thru all day thinking abt u..and only u..sometimes i can spend hours and hours..non stop..just thinking abt u..everything abt u..i cnt sleep at night,because of you.i cant think straight.because of you.i have lost everything i had to me.because of you. i am not blaming u,rather im blaming how i feel abt u..not YOU...its me.its all my fault.when i think of u,i think of the one i want,and then i remember,i had u! u were mine! I HAD U..! u USED to b mine.. i USED to have you.. i USED to have wot i need..i USED to have what i want.. how did it all go away..i still dont get it..but everyday,the regret,it kills me..i feel suffocated knowing tht i dont have you any more..and it scares me to even imagine i wont ever get the chance to b with u again..
its lyk sumthing uv always wanted,the person u r deeply in love with,waiting for ur chance one day,the only one thing u want in life,nothing else,AND THEN U REMEMBER U HAD HIM AND U LOST HIM! it drives me more and more crazy every day knowing ur goin further and further away frm me..
life dsnt hand out 2nd chances every day.. BUT I HAD A 2ND CHANCE and im a fukin asshole for losing tht too! i could have kept it,but no somehow i got my own head confused and my priorities changed i dnt knw why i wasnt thinking straight i let u go and i could kill myself for it! and now i dont knw wot to do..im lost..i got my chance,i got wot i wanted and.. i.let.it.go.
how much more can i cry,when my tears dry out..sometimes i have no tears left.. and i hate myself for tht too..knowing tht i cnt mourn it enough.. it has to b my fault..bcz u r ok..uv always been ok..and iv been the one left behind..it must b my fault..it IS my fault.. i dont knw wot i can do to make it right.i just need u so badly i cud give ANYTHING.and i mean literally ANYTHING i am capable of.anything.anything.anything.
i knw tht this is real..because its been a year and a bit..and im still here..
one of the biggest lessons iv learnt in life..is tht regret is a bitch.. and u wudnt never knw until u actually regret..
knowing that i had you..and,somehow surely, i let u slip away..i had you,yet i let it slip..thru my fingers..i wake up everyday,thinking its ok,and i then it hits me..within seconds..the reality..of what i have lost..i go thru all day thinking abt u..and only u..sometimes i can spend hours and hours..non stop..just thinking abt u..everything abt u..i cnt sleep at night,because of you.i cant think straight.because of you.i have lost everything i had to me.because of you. i am not blaming u,rather im blaming how i feel abt u..not YOU...its me.its all my fault.when i think of u,i think of the one i want,and then i remember,i had u! u were mine! I HAD U..! u USED to b mine.. i USED to have you.. i USED to have wot i need..i USED to have what i want.. how did it all go away..i still dont get it..but everyday,the regret,it kills me..i feel suffocated knowing tht i dont have you any more..and it scares me to even imagine i wont ever get the chance to b with u again..
its lyk sumthing uv always wanted,the person u r deeply in love with,waiting for ur chance one day,the only one thing u want in life,nothing else,AND THEN U REMEMBER U HAD HIM AND U LOST HIM! it drives me more and more crazy every day knowing ur goin further and further away frm me..
life dsnt hand out 2nd chances every day.. BUT I HAD A 2ND CHANCE and im a fukin asshole for losing tht too! i could have kept it,but no somehow i got my own head confused and my priorities changed i dnt knw why i wasnt thinking straight i let u go and i could kill myself for it! and now i dont knw wot to do..im lost..i got my chance,i got wot i wanted and.. i.let.it.go.
how much more can i cry,when my tears dry out..sometimes i have no tears left.. and i hate myself for tht too..knowing tht i cnt mourn it enough.. it has to b my fault..bcz u r ok..uv always been ok..and iv been the one left behind..it must b my fault..it IS my fault.. i dont knw wot i can do to make it right.i just need u so badly i cud give ANYTHING.and i mean literally ANYTHING i am capable of.anything.anything.anything.
i knw tht this is real..because its been a year and a bit..and im still here..
posted by angelic devil @ 3:14 AM
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